If Only Dogs Could Talk...
By Marge Howe
I used to fall asleep at night after praying for my children. We dogs pray
too, you know. I always asked God to help my puppies; to see that they had
good homes and a better life than mine. I never asked for anything for
myself, though. I figured my life was about as good as it was going to get,
and I was resigned to living the rest of it in this ghetto that the humans
called a puppy mill. But then the good people came, and I learned that God
really does take care of all his creatures.......
I don't remember my real mommy; I was taken from her when I was very young.
I know I had some brothers and sisters, but I never saw them again, either.
One day, one of the humans that I learned to refer to as the "bad people" came
and took me away from my mother and siblings. I was so scared that day. The
humans took me out of my cage and put me in a small box. I remember that it
was hot that day, and I could hardly breathe in that box, or even stand up in
it. They didn't give me any food or water, and I was in there for what seemed
like forever to a little dog.
Finally one of the bad people let me out and set me on the ground, but my
freedom was short lived. Very soon I was in another cage, one like I shared
with mommy and my brothers and sisters, only this time everyone was a stranger
to me. There were ten of us in that cage, and it was really yucky. It
smelled because everyone was going to the bathroom everywhere, and their
mommies weren't around to clean it up. There was a bowl of water in the
corner, and I sure needed a drink. But the water in there tasted really bad.
It was so hot, and some of the neighbors from above had peed in it. I
eventually drank from the bowl, but that first taste of my new water supply
will stay with me forever. It wasn't even fit for cats.
I guess I settled into my new life rather quickly for a little pup. I whined
and carried on a bit at first, but the humans just ignored me, and my new
friends started to pick on me, so I grew up in a hurry. It doesn't pay to be
the crybaby of the pack. Nobody else looked quite like me.....some were
bigger, some smaller, some were even different colors than me, but we all
seemed to get along ok. Until meal times, that is. Then it was every dog for
herself. Oh yes, I forgot to mention, we were all girls at my new home.
The food in there was almost as bad as the water. It was always some kind of
mush, with something added that I swear tasted like sawdust. I guess it was
cheap and it fattened us up, so that was all that mattered to the bad people.
I sure missed my mommy's milk. And to think now that we all fought for scraps
of that meal. It was all we had, and it was always a long time before we were
given any more, so we gobbled it up.
My life back then was so boring. We were never let out of our cages, and
sometimes there were so many of us in there that we could hardly stand or turn
around. My feet always hurt from the wire floor. Fifi was my best buddy, and
we often played together. That is until she got sick and the bad people took
her away. I never did see her again. I hope she went to a better home, but
I'm not so sure. She coughed a lot and got so skinny.
When I was about eleven months old, I was finally let out of the cage I had
spent my entire youth in and taken to meet my first male friend. What a
dream! He was a few years older than me, but so handsome. Some of the girls
said I would regret growing up and leaving them, but back then I thought they
were just jealous. After all, I got to share a brand new cage with my male
friend, and he really liked me. He wanted to play some strange games, but I
didn't mind. It seemed to make him and the bad people happy, so I went along.
Then one day they took him from me and I was all alone in my new home. He
never did tell me his name; I guess the humans didn't bother to give him one.
They never named me either. I saw them taking him to another cage to join a
female I didn't recognize, and that was the last I saw of him. But I didn't
care. I had an entire cage to myself now, and even if it wasn't very big, it
was all mine. I didn't have to fight over the food or water any more, and I
was on the top row, so nobody peed (or did that other unmentionable thing) on
me again. I thought this was living.
I didn't feel very good after my male friend left me. My tummy bothered me
and I had to pee all the time. And I was getting so fat, even though the bad
people weren't giving me any more food to eat. I didn't understand it at
first, but then the light finally dawned on me. I guess all that fun my cage-
mate and I were having had consequences. I was pregnant. I wish someone had
explained about the birds and the bees to me. I was much too young to be a
mother.
But on the bright side, I was going to have my own babies soon, and I
wouldn't be alone any more. It can get pretty boring in a cage all by
yourself day after day. Of course I didn't know about "human bonding" back
then, but I still imagined a better life than what I had. I spent most of my
time just laying around, chatting with the dogs in the cages closest to mine.
I went into labor during the night, and boy, was I scared. It hurt so much.
And I was all alone. I guess I had a rather easy labor and delivery
though.....and by morning I had three beautiful children at my breasts. The
humans seemed pleased with me; one of them said I was a "natural breeder."
Only compliment I ever received.
Children can sure be demanding.....even if they are only puppies! I enjoyed
being a mother, don't get me wrong. But I was so tired and weak all the time.
My new home became tiny in a hurry, and there was nowhere to go to get away
from my kids. I nursed them night and day, on whatever little milk I could
produce. Thank God they all survived; many of my neighbor's children didn't
make it. But they were taken from me all too quickly; just like I was taken
from my mother. I was afraid of that.
And so my life went on, day after day. Every few months I would have a
different male visitor, and another litter of puppies was on the way. I
really tried not to get pregnant, but the cage was so small for the two of us
and there really wasn't much else to do. By the time I was three I had given
birth to 16 puppies, and all but two survived. My first children were the
healthiest; the rest I worry about to this day.
Then one day my life changed forever. What I now refer to as the "big
shakeup" occurred. All hell broke loose that day......the day the "good
people" showed up. There were so many of them, and they were everywhere.
Some humans in uniforms put fancy collars on the bad people's wrists, and took
them away in cars. Then they came and walked all around my home, looking in
the cages at my neighbors and me. Everyone was scared and barking up a storm,
but not me. These humans had such nice voices! One of the human ladies came
and talked to me, and told me not to be afraid, and that I was safe now. I
believed her.
These good people took everyone from their cages and put us all into what
they called crates, then put us in their vans. They were taking us all
somewhere, and I kept remembering the kind human lady's words and I tried to
be brave. I didn't have any puppies then, and I was so glad. It would have
been hard keeping them calm, and I knew I needed to keep a level head about me
to get through whatever was ahead for me.
And how right I was. From what little I was able to understand, we were all
being "rescued" and taken to a place called the "Humane Society." It was a
big, clean, warm building, and everyone was so nice to us. I was taken from
my crate and put into a really big cage that had a whole bowl of water in
it.....and it was so cool and sweet tasting. I couldn't seem to get enough of
it, but the good human lady told me not to drink too much at first, and I
tried to obey her.
We were all taken, one at a time, into a funny smelling room where a big
human man in a white coat examined us. I soon realized that he was the human
doctor who decided our fate. I tried so hard to stand tall and proud and show
him that I was worth saving, but he didn't seem so sure at first. He told the
good lady holding me that I was malnourished, (I think that meant that I was
skinny), and that I had heartworm and scabies and was riddled with fleas, and
also that I had a mouth full of bad teeth. How rude he seemed. Had he looked
in a mirror lately? His fur seemed to be thinning on top, and his breath was
worse than my last lover's.
I guess they decided to keep me, because I was given a whole bunch of shots,
then made to swallow some yucky medicine, and finally taken into another room,
with yet another nice, big cage, and put inside of it. There I was given a
little bit of food; I shouldn't try to eat a lot at first the good human lady
said, but enough to make me feel better. It was delicious! It was only some
dry dog food, but I didn't care. It was tasty, and there weren't any bugs in
it to chase!
Over the next few weeks I ate more food at the Humane Society than I think I
had ever been fed at the mill. I was given my first real bath, too, and I was
amazed at how wonderful I felt after standing in a tub of clean water. Who
would have thought! The good human lady shaved off what was left of my fur,
but promised me that it would grow back, and that when it did, I would be
beautiful. She rubbed some pretty smelling cream on my skin, and it made all
the itching stop. Then when I got stronger, they gave me what was called an
operation. When I woke up, I had a cut with some stitches on my belly, and
the good human lady was there again to explain that I couldn't have any more
babies, but I didn't care. Most of my teeth had been removed, too, but she
said my mouth wouldn't hurt me now when I ate my meals.
I felt like I had died and gone to heaven. I had a clean cage; one that was
big enough for me to play in. I also had lots of food and cool water, and
quite a few of my friends were still around to talk with. Some had to be sent
to heaven because they were too sick for the human's medicine to help, but I
knew it was for the best. I could easily spend the rest of my life at this
Humane Society. I was happy and safe. But again, that was not to be.
The good human lady who cared for us told everyone one day that we were just
about ready to be "adopted." She made it sound so wonderful. Someone had
told our story on the television news, and now there were lots of human people
coming to the shelter to look at us, and maybe bring us home with them. There
they would "love" us, and pet us and walk us and even buy us toys. I was so
excited! There was one catch, however. We had thirty days to find new homes,
and after that time, the unthinkable would happen. We all sure prayed hard
when we heard about that. Finally, the humans started coming.....
At first, they just seemed interested in the babies. I wasn't jealous; I
suppose the pups needed someone to care for them more than we did, but we old-
timers were all eager to be chosen, too. I stood tall and wagged my tail
whenever a human walked by my cage, but most just seemed to keep on going.
Sometimes, I heard comments like "she's too old," or "she's too scraggly
looking," or even nastier comments about my lack of teeth, but I never gave up
hope. Somebody would want me. Time was passing quickly by when my chance
finally came.
On one of the last few mornings that I had left to be adopted, my human lady
friend came right up to my cage and told me that there was someone here to
look at me. She told me to be on my best behavior, and that if I was lucky, I
might finally have a home. Some older human lady was looking for a nice
little doggie to keep her company because her mate had gone to heaven, and she
was very lonely. I was brought out to the reception room, where she was
waiting to meet me. I walked right up to her, wagging my tail all the way,
and did my best to impress her. I think my human caregiver knew this was my
last chance to find a good home, and did her best to convince her that I was
worth adopting.
The older human lady was told that yes, most of my teeth were missing, but I
had no trouble eating my meals. And it was true that my coat wasn't very
attractive at the moment, but when it grew back in, she was sure I'd be the
prettiest Yorkshire Terrier in town. After all, I was what she called a
"purebred." I knew that meant I was somebody. She seemed to be thinking
about me for the longest time; but then she finally looked down and asked me
if I'd like to go home with her. I wagged my scrawny little tail as fast and
hard as I could, until she reached down and took me into her arms. I was
going home at last.
Mommy just finished reading me a story out of the newspaper about another
puppy mill that the good people found. I sure hope they are able to rescue
those poor dogs. Some of my children might even be there. Mommy says that
there will always be puppy mills, because people just don't care about us. I
think she's wrong about that, though. More humans just have to find out about
the bad people, and what they are doing to us. Maybe someday someone will
tell our story. If only dogs could talk...........